One day, I was journaling during a women’s retreat. This retreat was like no other. It was a silent retreat. That’s right. Two and a half days in complete silence with God. No TV, no social media, no surfing the web. You get the picture.
It was during this time of fasting and silence, that I experienced a major epiphany. Well, actually several, but for now, we’ll focus on just one.
“I’m married to a man I don’t know.”
I literally wrote those words in my journal – no kidding.
It was scary. To realize you’re in a life-long relationship with someone you don’t truly know.
I’m not talking about my wonderful husband, in the natural, of almost 20 years. I’m talking about my supernatural husband, Jesus.
I accepted Jesus as my Savior when I was about six years old, so I’ve been a Believer for a while (but not a perfect one by any means). I’ve known of God for a while, but did I truly know His character?
Does Jesus respond to mess-ups the way a tired, irritated parent does with a child? Or does He give us a cold shoulder when we fall short? Does the Lord have a sense of humor? (I’m sure I give him plenty of reasons to laugh.) Does He smile or frown when He looks down from heaven at me?
I realized in that moment of revelation that I had unknowingly projected my own personality, experiences, opinions, likes/dislikes and thoughts on the Lord.
If I was frustrated with myself or others about something, then He must be frustrated too. If I thought something wasn’t going the way it should, then, surely, He must think the same too.
Quite frankly, it’s extremely embarrassing to realize my arrogance, but, I suspect I’m not alone on this one.
If you’ve been on this faith walk for any period of time, you will experience moments where you question God’s movement, or seemingly, lack thereof.
“Lord, it’s been months/years, why haven’t you answered my prayer? Why am I still going through this?”
Isaiah 55:8-9, states, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.”
If you are confused, afraid, frustrated, worried or even angry about something you’ve been seeking the Lord about, take a step back, and make sure you’re asking Him to reveal His thoughts about it to you. Then ask Him to help you adjust your thoughts and actions to align with His Sovereign thoughts and ways.
From time to time, you may find yourself slipping back into your own way of thinking. If so, just rinse and repeat.
“You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.” (Isaiah 26:3)
A Quick Prayer:
Gracious Lord, we are amazed by your thoughts about us. We stand in awe at Your mighty and magnificent ways. We confess that we don’t see ourselves, others and situations the way You do. We proclaim Your Word today. We proclaim that your thoughts and ways are so much higher than ours, and we are thankful for that, because we know that You see us not as we are today, but how you are shaping and molding us to become. Lord, we find rest and peace because we know that You are in control, despite the way it looks. We thank you that all is well, in Your Precious Name. Amen.